[Poem]Things Never Said Thursday, Nov 29 2007 

I want to tell you something

Something that I’m scared to say

I want to show you something

Before this dream fades away

We’ve been friends for so long

And yet I never had the courage to say

That when we were friends for so long

I wanted you to always stay

I wanted you to stay by my side

Even when it hurt to be there

I wanted also to stay by your side

Even when I felt like I couldn’t get air

I know that I hurt you bad

And I’m sorry because I didn’t want you to hurt

I know that I only made you sad

And I’m sorry because I know you ended up for the worst

I always wanted to give you a choice

To stay with me or to go

But I was never strong enough to voice

My true feelings, and now I’ve hurt you so

You say that you don’t regret

Taking that chance to move on

But even though your heart is set

I can’t help but feel like something’s wrong

So everyday I try to speak

And show you how much you’re vital

But I always end up too weak

And it’s ends up becoming a struggle

So I hope you know through me weird ways

Through the imperfections you say you’ve come to love

That I vow to keep you happy always

And vow to be there even when I’m below and you’re above

[Poem]Restart Wednesday, Nov 14 2007 

Let’s try this again, love.

This time, let’s not have this so hard to do.

Let’s not have this so we’re confused.

Let’s set these borders

Organize these orders

And have them not understand one word.

Let’s try this again, love.

This time, let’s not be sad anymore

And let’s just lay here on the floor

Let’s just not be so shady

And list reasons, A to Z

And have them not understand one word.

[Poem]Selfish Love Wednesday, Nov 14 2007 

Loosely based on the song Ai Nante by Tegoshi Yuya, Kato Shigeaki, and Nishikido Ryo of NewS

Selfish Love

We were so close, we shared the most
Of this pitiful existence, and it hurts so much
You said to let go, you couldn’t do it no more
And it became too much to bear…

I’ve walked a hundred thousand miles
To be where you were tonight
What did I see but thousand watt smiles
Meant for someon else tonight

Selfish love; it ran through our hearts
Forever changing us
Selfish love; it hurt us from the start
And we grew apart forever

Wouldn’t it be nice to see
Forever with a few more days to spare
Wouldn’t it be nice to stay
In this single moment for eternity?

Selfish love; you and me forever
Whenever we fought we cried
Selfish love; you and me together
A combination meant to fall apart

Truly, you must be as torn apart as me
As ripped at the seams as me
But I must know the truth
How are you holding up?

I’ve walked a hundred thousand miles
To be where you were tonight
What did I see but thousand watt smiles
Meant for someon else tonight

It’s cruel hell for me
All I remember is seeing your smiling face in the sun
It’s harsh jail for me
All I remember is this feeling that you were the one…

Selfish love; a dedicated song
But it really wasn’t for me
Selfish love; together for so long
But you were counting down the days until you were free

Wouldn’t it be nice
If that single moment of happy
Stood completely still
And turned into Eternity?

But a love like this
Is doomed from the start
And it hurts to reminisce
All I remember now is a broken heart…